long distance
November 4, 2008
I miss him. I don’t think he misses me. He isn’t the least bit needy – not that shows, anyway. He’s so.. guarded. I was thinking earlier that I wish I could take back everything between us since May, because I have revealed so much and in ways that I think lessen his opinion of me. But he never shares anything about himself, or how he feels about things.
I don’t like that, I hate that he’s so distant. I especially hate that it’s probably partially because of my behavior. I want so very badly to be close to him, for him to let me close.
He seems to have so many walls now that weren’t there when we met last year. And I despair of ever getting past them.
