an update kinda post

It’s been over a month since I’ve written anything here.  I gotta say, blogging does not have the same cathartic appeal as it did before, when I thought I was safely anonymous.  Now I feel.. unsafely possibly-not-anonymous.  At any minute the wrong person could figure out exactly who I am and everyone I’ve mentioned in the blog, and get horribly upset and offended that I’ve been so nasty and hurtful and revealing about them. 

But anyway.  Life is strange.  Since I haven’t written here in a while, how about a little update?

I have become the breadwinner in the household, which is a little scary considering I was basically just staying afloat when I only had my share of things to pay.  Neko does not have a job at the moment, not for several months now.  She’s trying to do a freelance thing, but so far that’s not really panning out as much of a moneymaker, and it’s not looking like that’s going to change anytime terribly soon.  She interviewed for a part-time job recently though, so at least that will give her money for rent.  And hey, she made over $100 today doing webcam pornz.  Maybe that will become a regular thing. 

Even being a sex-positive individual, I gotta admit the webcam thing is a little.. skeevy to me.  Neko is very cheerful about it though, in her charmingly innocent-seeming way.  She doesn’t seem to feel as though it’s degrading, so I guess I shouldn’t project my own feelings onto it.   And hell, she made more money in 6 hours than I do in my 8 hour workday at a full time job.

I’ve seen Kevin twice since my last post – we’re trying to get together at least twice a month.  Neko doesn’t leave the house much though, so the last time Kevin and I played she was upstairs in the office, which was a little weird.  She had her headphones on, listening to music while she worked on a project, but it still means that Kevin and I weren’t comfortable making too much noise, which does rather put a damper on certain activities.  And seeing as how my only real sex partner has disappeared from my life, those noisy activities are the ones I’d really like to be doing.  Ah well.  Maybe Kevin’s house will be available for play dates soon.

Vash is.. still MIA.  I wish I knew if it’s because he’s fucked up, or if he’s just an asshole.  I tried to contact the only person I have info for who knows him, but apparently there’s a lot more animosity there than I realized, in regards to that whole “unsafely not-so-anonymous” thing I mentioned earlier, and I really don’t know how to deal with it.   Perhaps a simple, “I’m very sorry, I was very stupid, and I promise I won’t share anything you say with the world at large.”  …I really seem to have a problem with oversharing – I shouldn’t even be writing this paragraph I suppose.  *sigh*

The holidays were very nice, lots of family time, which Neko actually participated in.  *warm fuzzies*  Things between us have been really good lately, we’ve been getting along really well and been very sweet to each other, for the most part.  We even had some sex, and it was quite nice.  

*sigh* This is probably a horribly boring post, and I apologize for that.  It should proabably end here, before I blather on about increasingly trivial crap that no one wants to read.

Soon, I’ll write a post about how my role as breadwinner has made Neko into my willing little housepet.  Dominance and submission, coming soon!